takupunk

this film looks like it could be one of my favourite films of 2009.

I knows theres a huge split in the audience, some love it, some hated it enough to write about it on the internet( i still dont get why anyone would go out their way to tell the world how much they hate something like a film, music or a book...beyond me) I heard if you were thinking and hoping it was something on the line of Disney then this is NOT the film for you.....HALLELUJAH. Ive heard its more adult and hipster and less trying to be a blockbuster. So im actually pleased.

ps. i want max's wolf suite. It looks wicked for halloween or just to be an idiot and run around in for fun times sake.

anyway in other news i won another Paramore meet n greet for birmingham which is pretty cool.

These 2 live acoustics performances are bloody amazing!







Dan. i hope they only exception like this at birmingham and wemberly

Paranoia is what gets the best and worst of me. I cant seem to help it. i feel like ive made so many mistakes that cant be changed. But, i guess i have to live with them. I wish you could erase stuff, i guess everyone does, just little things, little scenarios. or make someone else forget, but how selfish would that be.

Ive been thinking a lot, about the end. why i fear it so much. The earliest i remember fearing death was when i was about 6 years old. I used to think "the world will still move on even when you pass" it freaked me out only because i would miss things, wont be part of things that happen. People who died before pc's and all this technology we have now couldnt of even imagined what the world is now. thats what i fear. Not breathing, not seeing friendly faces. I think i fear my mum dying the most. I'm going to miss her so much even if i do at points talk to her like shes a house keeper and i hate that. It also gets me thinking " why do you work such a shit boring job whichh leads you to not taking on your dreams to just pay the bills, the rent and then just die. What is the point of life if you dont ...live.

I also fear believing in anything. I fear(wasting)time in something i could never prove is real. i dont want to be...the fool. thats sounds harsh its not intended to be offensive in anyway. BUT i do believe, i believe in something...maybe not what the book says, not the 'belief' that everyone names God. i dont know what it is but i feel something guides you. What i like about having a faith of your own is kinda like you dont have all these "rules" and pressure to be 'perfect'. Thats why i dont follow the bible and churches because i feel they try to mould you into something, or try to push so much onto you that it feels a little fake.
ok ive been called down to eat.

cheers for listening, sorry if i scared anyone, i hope not.

but anyway

bye chums

Dan

p.s a little on the light hearted side (HOLY CRAP WHY HAVE I NEVER HEARD OF THIS COOL PRIVATE INVESTIGATION SHOWS VERONICA MARS SINCE NOW?) so much girl pants crap is on tv now, so much crap with little meaningless teenage promblems (girls and their drama taking over good tv) which made me stay away from tv for along time. But VM is finally something good on tv i can tune into and try and solve the investigation.

why, hello chums.
this time around its not pessimistic..so hold no fears people.

The past thursday i went to london with two crazy brothers (they're twins, and girls) but i call them brothers cause, thats how it is.

grace cleere is the crasiest easy going rambler i never had in my life..its like me but put in a GIRL...woah! its the coolest thing ive ever witnest

Poptart is like the brother/sister ive always wanted ( thats made in no offence its like... shes not whiny and annoying like some girls are) and admire her opinions,morals and her sense in music.

(all in all i think its weird ive randomly suddenly met people that are gonna change my life forever and already have done)

anywa back to the point ,the trip to london dragged me out of that "cave" feeling and finally felt like things were moving forwards again...i hadnt been to london for sometime so it was like being back home(?) or something that felt so welcoming and positive (even though london looks like the unfriendlist place at times).
There we went to this crazy arcade/mallish type place it was huge, it was amazing. it reminded me of being back in america which was shweet (< lil garth algar there). I was crappy at any racing game or a game involving a car...yes i got my ass whipped and kept coming 4th or last (at one point i thought i came second...that wasnt the case). i didnt do too bad at the basket ball though.

there are many plans ahead...sadly no money to do all these amazing things...BUT i just got a call for a second interview..( its some small store i duno why they do second interviews)...
anyway if i get the job ill have to be up at 5 (in the morning) and bike down to the store < i have mixed feeling between it being an adventure or it being horribble to get up when its still dark..... but its shweet pay and it means ill be able to do things that are coming up)

upcoming plans
1.a day to remember gig
2.halloween (with the LDN pack in london)
3.writing sessions/jams with poptart ( we need this to happen. we live so far away)
4. paramore birmingham
5.paramore december 18th
6. a trillion cinema trips and eat outs!!


(^ that doesnt seem like much at all in thw way of plans)

anyway me pal pops has got me so pschyed for university. Ive never been one for university (college for those of you who are american) i always thought it was like a pressure, i hated it when teachers used to drag out that uni was the only way to make a future, to be worthy.

I want to do music as i said and i will one day whereever it'll go i duno but ill be doing music weather its the centre of my life, or a side project ( im hoping for the first)

anyway ill be studying film and television fiction at university, im hoping to go to hertfordshire for a few reasons 1. its a fantastic uni 2. poptart is going 3. me and pops can write and go forward with music from there. 4. i'll be with a best friend.

so... "things are looking up oh finally"

thank you good night and the rest.

dan
daylor
takupunk
takato

Since my last post my attitude/ everything seems to have uplift I guess.
I'm so psyched to apply to uni now.
I may get into the same uni as poptart... Maybe maybe not which will be sweet.




And I've just realized.
Its been 2 years and some.
I reread what I wrote for you that day
I still think the same from all of what was said, but I don't feel hurt anymore, just lucky I got to
Be part of your life.
I still feel regrets and changes I would of made if I'd of known but I can't.
what I'd give to see life in your eyes again and your smile.

It's a shame.
Miss you

Dan

I'm not trying to be or sound or come across depressed.



Tonight it's clear just like everyother day/ night I'm inside my house locked away and have been since I come back from Spain that's like 3 weeks.

I think it might be cause the few friends I had in my honetown have left. Most of the people living here are either very different from me/ have different morals or have none at all... Or just love to get smashed every weekend.

So no wonder I'm keeping low.
The sad thing is i've to notice I'm such a loner now. The friends I met this year live so far away/ have there own lives to live and they live it.

ATM I feel like I'm relying on people too much it's not fair on anyone.

People keep asking me my ideas...


Anyway

Night

Dan.


Need to get our more but where and who?

a sudden change in feelings.

pessimistic, maybe its the weather.
But ive got no hjob no money in my back pocket.
i feel like im not going to accomplish anything.

you may think

well getb the hell of your ass and stop moaning.

i know this.

whining wont help. doing will.
you know when u feel like youve done enough action, but you really havent.

its like ive got no kore energy.
theres people that go to extremes to make sure they get what they want and work hard for it.

at the monet trying to find a job to earn money to do things feels like the hardest thing ever.
its not. it could be easy.

but all my thoughts of failure of the next few years going down the pan with my dream along side are getting in way.


i dontreally know how this music/band dream will work if i cant get anywhere or even get a job all my friends who want to make a band live so far away.....which i need money to travel.




fewjkfejhne4w8ur32n23 o3rnfcljkewfbefb3 < that didnt help either


dig a hole and bury myself until things look up...is NOT a good idea.


bye

hey guys ( my like 4 livejournal family) haha or to anyone who may find this...welcome.

as of the last week its been getting abit strange.
1. my friends are leaving for university ( dont worry i got the grades i just decided to take a year out) and my hometown social life is going to be non existant. Kinda weird having to say goodbye.
2. now i have to find a job. but i have the pressure of my mum on hand. she assumes i want a career job for the year in media. NOT the case. I would like part time job to earn money so i can do things in the year... so i can go to london see my friends and practice with a few friends who im trying to make a band with..... and if theres any twloha/street teams to join in at ya know?!
3. this whole future buiness is scarying me. My parents didnt take on thier dreams ( my mums dream were crushed because of her mother passing) and my dad just found hanging in pubs was better for him than school....

now they arent dream believers. things dont happen to people like me.
but my dream? i want to do music for the rest of my life. be in a band and make music with my friends. ive never wanted anything so much in my life. i want to sing infront of people.

but it hurts cause... well people close to me dont think its sensible..or would ever happen.

4. the other day i thought it would be easier to just stop breathing as i looked at the list of MEDIA careers i could take for the future. it would be easier just to not carry on as i wouldnt be happy.

people dont really see that side of me. but we all have a side people dont see right?

so anyway


to some it up

im going to try so hard to... jus go for my dream.
its my life
gotta work my heart out

dan

bye

Just a lil random thought stream recently... btw i'm not being all emotional depressed ha..just felt like writing my thoughts and experiences differently.

i've felt so open but closed.
too drained to give you my attention

This feeling of lonelyness is sinking in
ive been far
too far
since ive been in the distance
i've learnt i dont care for you anymore
is that harsh? its the way i feel.

it sounds selfish, your the wrong person who i need attention from.
why is it, when you dont feel the same but They feel so much passion for you?

the paranoia will never give.
hoping it'll fade,.
sounds typical, but its the truth.
i dont even recongnise  who i was.
Im still figuring it out.
I know who i want to be, is that an act?


to whom im asking these questions to, i have no idea.

i feel sick
too drained to give you my attention

Ok so i missed my flight from san diego to England . i read it as 6 in the evening not 6 in the morning, so at 3 in the afternoon we get to the airport, the woman cannot find our names listed for a 'non existing' flight. she then tells us we missed the flight which was this morning. she sends us away with a us airway card, the us airway number tellls us we need to ring the company we brought our tickets from. we cannot do that until tonight.


briain this person we're are staying with told us, go back to the airport they HAVE to put you on the next flight and not make you pay $250 (which the airport told us it would cost)




so atm im at the house in san diego clueless with my insurance running out...which will have to be renewed..


this is no fun and i just want to be home.


Dan

p.s. i should be happy, im in a hot location, food and juices, i think i should be grateful.

I got to the venue at 5, the meet and greet wasn’t until 5:45, so I just walked around Citywalk for 20 minutes (it’s bloody awesome, the atmosphere of Citywalk was insane, I’m from the UK so we have nothing like that). I then began to hunt for the PFC M&G sign which was no where to be seen, or at least I could not see it. I asked security and a couple of other staff about the meet n greet, they knew crap all…except for No Doubt info.   I asked around and I finally bumped into some paramore fans who were also looking for the meet n greet. We walked around until 5:45 asking staff where this M&G and finally staff called some peeps up.

 We ran to this back gate and finally got into the meet n greet which took a while to walk to. I saw the guys from a far. When we got to the Tour bus this guy, (a crew friend of the guys) told us what we could and could not do (no hugs, no ringing mates, and no video cameras). After 5 minutes paramore were ready to meet. Zac was the first to sign AWKIF and I gave him Bacon Floss (which he was chuffed about) and a Pink Berry gift card. Jeremy was next to sign and I gave him a ‘let Jesus light the way’ key ring and a Pink Berry gift card, again he was chuffed to receive gifts and like my ‘That’s what she said’ t-shirt. Josh was next, I gave him some butterfingers, and Pink Berry, from then he started asking me where I was from. I gave Taylor a ‘grow your own Gnome’ and Butterfingers, he laughed but got excited about the growing a Gnome, he started asking about my accent. Hayley was last to sign the record, she could not believe it was 4 years old. I gave Hayley a ‘What would Audrey do?’ Book, she got all stoked up, turned to a crew member filming the meet n greet and said something about it ( I  was kind of nervous so I wasn’t fully focusing on what she was saying ha) I told her I wrote a little note which she replied with “ I love notes dude thank you so much”.
Group Photo time! Zac had a poop pillow on his head, which a fan gave Hayley (sorry, I cannot remember who gave it to her). Hayley noticed my Ryan Russell hoodie and the t-shirt I was wearing, I told her my mate ripped it, she replied with something but again I was kind nervous to meet them so it flew over me. Whilst in the photo, Zac hit Jeremy and josh, Hayley told me “they love hitting and feeling each others boobs, it’s kind of scary”.



 The talk. Taylor and Josh came up to me and asked a few questions.
Taylor asked how old I was. What I was doing in life and what I planning on doing. I said I want to work with Twloha and have signed up to do that. Taylor commented on them being “Good people, a good organisation”. Tay stayed and listened as Josh was asking me how long id been in the USA, I said “4 weeks” he thought I said 4 years, he then asked if id just come over for the tour.,i said No no' and explained why i was here, they asked how i found america.Hayley had already spoken to me but she thanked me for the gift again. We spoke some more with the guys, little comments here and there. The crewmember said to the guys “you have to go in 2 minutes” josh responded with a “nooo”.



Before they left Zac came up to me and a fan I met at the venue high fives and respects. Josh did a low high five down the row he was more talkative and interative than i had assumed he would be  I asked Taylor if I could quickly get a photo of him holding a sign for my friend poppy. He did which was mint. Jeremy also was cool about a photo, and Hayley was rushed but walked back to take a photo with me. Pretty cool.

All in all these are the nicest band I have met, such nice genuine people. I was nervous and if you had to say “star struck”.


Last night I was not able to sleep as I kept going over the meet and how lucky I was to be able to meet them. Crazy.

The gig was sweet too, but I was dragged out of the gig through during crushcrushcrush as I was filming. Call me a doormat but they saw me talk in the camera and did not say anything, so I just filmed. They took the camera off me and took it to ‘lost and found’. The woman at ‘lost n found’ was kind of having mood swings.

I got back and watched the gig; they blew the house down during LTFB. Sadly, they did not come out for “stand and deliver” some other chick came out with orangey brown hair.

More photos under my photobucket

http://s579.photobucket.com/albums/ss234/takupunk/

BUT since the meet ive had this gut feeling, like my life is nothing, A TRAP FOR A FUTURE I DONT WANT, like i dont want a normal office job, i would like to do music, ive dreamed of being on a tour and shit.
ill be realistic and get a normal job on the side but we live once im going to be working on music more, if it gets me anywhere at all then ill be greatful.

I'm in San diego it's my second day here. I've took over 100 photos already. Everything is different in america compared to the uk. Now I'm in San diego most people in the uk seem extremely arrogant and bitter as a society. Here people care for you and who u are. But I have to say people eat way too much over here, a small flapjack (pancake) is the size of a dartboard..... That's pretty crazy.

I went to 3 thrift stores and after goodwill we went to another where I broke a hanger that broke a chunk off that went into my eye, the plastic was under my lower eye lid it was painful and I couldn't pull it out, I asked my mate kp to open my eye and get it. I was saved lucky!

I went to trailor joes it was all organic stuff :(.

Today I just sat by the pool and chatted to poppy (riotuk) that was fun getting to talk to a friend when u kinds feel a million miles away from home.... Which I literally am. So we had fun there many stewie jokes, future plans and our musical dream lives.

Tonight I'm going on a hench walk again!

So San diego has been a success in 2 days it's fucking great!

I'm here for 6 weeks sooo Itll be like home after a week!
Seeing paramore July 27th!


Cheers for the read !

Dan Diego! < cheers pops.


Dan Takato

only a couple of the pictures i took whilst at the VersaEmerge/Gian introduces london date, nothing wonderful but its something.

http://s579.photobucket.com/albums/ss234/takupunk/?albumview=grid

pic include mainly gig, one of and sierra and the others.


i still need the pictures from sinead but ill let her post them.

got my thrice albums. BUY THE 4 VOLUMES they are amazing as a whole its one of the best 2 records i own.



schools crud as usual, only a few months and i will be otu forever.

Im seeing paramore in LA thats crazy and ive booked the flights for america to stay in california san Dei for 5 weeks!!!!!! excited!

funny how one movie can make u speak to people u would have never spoke to , all i can thank is ferris! hint hint ferris day off! go buy it

so today feb 1st  is one year ago since i watched paramore live at brixton. It was the day before my birthday... so tomorrow i'm 18 which feels weird.
best day of my 2008... wish it was the same this year... but no.
Paramore made my 2008 tbh.



anyway i recieved this package for my birthday. It contained a card with cash, and two newspapers from 18 years ago tomorrow... so feb 2nd 1991..... how cool, ive been reading them... it feels like a whole different world. And these newspapers will be remembered, stuck on my wall and offically the coolest thing i've been given. So thanks Pat for the coolest present.

for my bday ill hopefully be chilling with close mates- like 4 of them. Paint balling and then camping.
I'm more into chilling with my close mates than having a  huge party where i invite a bunch of people who arent actually proper friends.

i have no idea what kp, harriet and bill have got me. one of those group buying gifts so who knows. I had a nightmare they got me RIOT trousers....... terrible.

Bye!
Dan

p.s. go rent out or by Candy and mouth to mouth bloody awesoem films.... you need to see.

basically been having good times, bad times, etc. Art is getting pretty crazy, literally the teacher is bullying me.. no not bullying just being biased and telling me im an empty shell and my views are wrong........ i knwo it sounds weird but yer my teachers is being a right noob on purpose.

had some great times this last 2 weeks..... alot of just hanging around mates houses whilst eatinga nd watching movies and even jamming out some songs.... i would wirte soem lyrics down but they could be awful so i wont just yet, maybe next time.

anyway ive seen a million billion thrillion drillion films this month, you def have to check out :
Hard candy
Tracy Fragments
Australia
mouth to mouth
Candy
Homedogg and z boys ( either the original or heath ledgers version)

most of them films are indie ( independent movies)

ah i forgot to mention i have blue and green hair again... Finally mann...

dAN

I have a passion for music, something ive wanted to do for the last year, and i want to do music. my 2 closet mates back me up on it. Harriets been helping me and ive been helping her in the jamming sesssions at break, lunches, frees, every free moment we get we spend in music singing or playing piano, all sorts.... first i need to practice on vocals.... we do it all the time but my paranoia ( duno how u spell that) gets the best of me.

i want nothing more than juyst to play good music. i dont care if only 6 people hear me, or whoever i jam with.
stuff art i have no passion for it.

what to do? lj friends?? any help ?

I have scarlet Fever/scarlatina.... my skin was on fire last night i couldnt stop itching.
you get it after a cold/flu or sore throat and ive had all 3.
atm im covered in white cream stuff called calanio ? maybe thats the name??

anyway i poosted 2 comments over myspace on renfue and shirock and both bands genuinly commented back so thats the good thing... shirock is a great band, buy there EP now!! '5' you can get it from itunes. and chuck told me that they are ' preparing a uk tour for sring 2009" .... and renfue not sure which member said that a uk tour is possible!"

anyway i'm off.... going to watch some tv with a box of tissues whilst blowing my snot out and itching my rash
sounds lovely

Dan

School is at its worst. I got a letter home saying im failing art ( aka my 3000 word essay wasn't to their standard ) which im annoyed about but meh.
Media is Crazy.
But you know what WORK IS NOT MY LIFE. It helps me get a better life, but i'm not going to let it over tower me. Ill work hard.
 
I've kinda lost faith in the church. Well kinda faith really. Alpha (*church thing) made it worse for me. I think the church tried pushing me into God but all that did was make me run. So I've  left the Baptist. If there is a God ill do it my way, on my own , or even with a few people, but not somewhere where i HAVE to do this so that God loves me ( that's truely the feeling i got) if there is something ( i don't know who or what) then i'll do it my way, no one elses.
 
And finally Straight Edge...... it's been a part of me for a few years ( since i've thought " i don't want to be pressured into doing stuff i dont want to, i dont want to follow that route in order to be cool") , and my parents/family are good reasons why i've been SE for however long. But you know what , I have some great friends, who except the fact that i dont drink, drugs or go sexy time crazy.... and they are great, excepting me for me you know!
 
 
so yer, i'm really optimistic atm.
 
DAN

Felling inspired. found some great illustrators. now i just need to do my personal study.

ok so it's been an ok week.
mostley working on a book series and a script for a drama series at school, basically i scratched weeks f script writing and went back to another idea this morning.

me and my cousin are writing this thriller young adults book ( we're not cocky enough/ good enough to get it published).... what we're doing is writing a 2 book series then getting it printed for our birthdays, a book for ourselves. for the fun of it.

going to see DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE IN 2 WEEKS !!!! dang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that'll be too good for words.

My best friend turned 18 yesturday, and it really shows how old we are now, im 17, 18 in feb, but i feel 14/15 .... next year i can do adult things but .. i dont want that power... unlike most teenagers.

and last but not least i got my own space in art! shhhhhhhweeeeeeeeeeettt!

see you guys later

Dan!!! - Takunami!